Weekend Cooking: The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake

It’s been a while since I’ve read a food book.

Or at least it feels like a while.

On a WhatsApp chat with my friends in Singapore – we’ve known each other for 20+ years since we were in teenagers in secondary school – one of my friends mentioned Aimee Bender’s The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake.

And that was the kick I needed to finally read this book.

(That got me thinking, what is it that kicks a book up my TBR list, where it has been sitting for years and years? A friend’s recommendation, that’s what. If not a real-life friend then an online friend, a fellow reader whose recs I am familiar with and trust).

Anyway, The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake has a different take on things, in terms of food books.

Rose Edelstein, on her ninth birthday, suddenly discovers she has an unusual gift – she can taste emotions through the food people make. This she learns as she bites into the chocolate lemon birthday cake her mother has made.

“I could absolutely taste the chocolate, but in drifts and traces, in an unfurling, or an opening, it seemed that my mouth was also filling with the taste of smallness, the sensation of shrinking, of upset, tasting a distance I somehow knew was connected to my mother, tasting a crowded sense of her thinking, a spiral, like I could almost even taste the grit in her jaw that had created the headache that meant she had to take as many aspirins as were necessary, a white dotted line of them in a row on the nightstand like an ellipsis to her comment: I’m just going to lie down….”

She can taste the drug and alcohol issues in the maple syrup, and the angst and depression in a classmate’s sandwich. And the secrets, oh, all the secrets in her mother’s cooking.

So it’s no wonder she prefers and worships factory made food. Doritos. Frozen waffles. Potato chips. Faceless, emotionless food.

You kinda know where the story is going, at least in terms of her family life. But Bender does take the reader on an extremely sharp curve when she leads us along with Rose’s brother’s story. I mean, I thought Rose was strange enough, but Joseph? Woah. That was truly bizarre.

(And yet, some part of it, totally understandable. If you’ve read the book, you may know what I mean, but I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t. But it’s been something that I cannot forget, weird, since this is more of Rose’s story than Joseph’s.)

I admired how Bender brought the LA neighborhood to life, where screenwriters lived in big apartment complexes and “stood out on balconies as I walked home from school, smoking afternoon cigarettes, and I knew someone had gotten work when the moving vans showed up. That, or they’d worn through their savings.
I adored the quirkiness, the surrealness, and just that little sprinkling of magic, of pixie dust, that Bender adds to the book. So that it is weird but not completely totally bamboozled out of your mind weird. That it still feels real, even with Joseph and what happens to him, that feeling of it being all too much, his way of coping with it.

This book, I didn’t really know what to expect with this book. And I think it’s a book that some people might not know what to do with, because it’s not completely out there enough for some, and maybe too quirky for others. Or not ‘foodie’ enough. But for me, this is a story about a young girl growing up, learning about herself, learning about her family and all its troubles. And it was a great read, with some stunning writing. For me it was such a refreshing treat, like lemon cake.



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  1. Very interesting book review! I guess the author’s idea of the baker or cook’s emotions being expressed in the food has a lot of potential to go one step further into the surreal. But your lemon cake photo is most cheerful-looking!

    best… mae at maefood.blogspot.com


  2. I’ve had this on my list for a long time, too. I bet I’d enjoy it — especially now that I know what to expect.


  3. Joseph’s story, whoo boy. And the dad! I have many feelings about this book, basically. And I, too, read it after seeing one of my good friends had rated it highly on Goodreads where it had been languishing on my to-read shelf.


  4. I’ve had this one on the to-read list for a long time, too. Do you think there’s crossover appeal for those who read young adult books? That’s kind of my sweet spot for fiction.

    Your cake looks lovely!


  5. I have heard the mixed reviews of this one but you have me curious. I like a book that takes a different spin on something–especially when the writing is so descriptive and lovely.

    How to decide what to read next and what causes me to bump something up that’s been on the shelf for a long time? Great question!! I have no idea. 😉


    1. Yeah I think the Goodreads reviews are quite mixed, so to me that was really puzzling at first, but I think if you’re going into with certain expectations, it might not be foodie enough, or it might not be weird enough. It’s hard to really explain it though!


  6. Love this book review! I’ve read some short stories of Aimee Bender’s and haven’t been totally wild about it — the premises of her stories have been a little more out there than my taste, so it made me suspicious of her novel. But it does sound really interesting!


    1. It really is. I think I may have read something of hers before, and wasn’t all that into it, which is probably why this book took so long to be read! And if not for my friend mentioning it, may never have been read!


  7. Yay! I’m so glad you enjoyed this read! I read it years ago and still remember Joseph’s story. How strange and unexpected! Your review makes me want to re-read “Lemon Cake” again. Have you read Bender’s short story, The Color Master? It’s a beautiful story.


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